Recently I found my son sitting on his bed, teary and staring off into space. Mommy radar brought me up to his room. I sensed a disturbance in the mommy force. “What’s wrong?” I ask as I pull him into my lap. He curls up like he did when he was smaller except now he is all limbs and on the cusp ... Read More about Therapeutic Swearing – The day I taught my son to curse.
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When the pain doesn’t stop…
It's been a tough few weeks. My body is suffering from a killer "End of School" hangover and the side effects of my latest round of treatment. After a blessed week off, today I start back up with about 5o pills a day, some nasty drops I must take in water, and my nemesis liquid medication ... Read More about When the pain doesn’t stop…
Laughing Off the Crazy: Chronic Illness and Lessons In Humility
There are a lot of things that royally suck about chronic illness. After 15 years, you'd think I'd have experienced most of the suckage illness could throw at me. Loss of job, freedom to plan, retain a sense of self apart from pain and the ability to maintain any source of modesty in those jaunty ... Read More about Laughing Off the Crazy: Chronic Illness and Lessons In Humility
A Letter to My Son: When you feel invisible…
It’s bedtime. The lights are out and you are snuggled underneath your comforter with your loveys that remind me you are still my little boy, despite how your toes stick out from under the blanket and your pj top is a bit too tight because of your last growth spurt. It’s that time of night when it’s ... Read More about A Letter to My Son: When you feel invisible…
Making Room for Pain
Once again, it’s been very quiet on Surrender The Day. That usually means I am just hanging on. Barely. I’ve been struggling with a variety of health issues that all cause some sort of pain or discomfort. I keep thinking “I don’t have time for this!” There is so much my spirit and mind want to do ... Read More about Making Room for Pain
“How was your day at school?” – Parenting through the good and bad days of growing up
My kids had a good day. There is something about when they have a good day that makes my mama heart soar. Every day when I go to pick them up I hold my breath as I wait for my boys to walk out those school doors. I search their faces, their body language, the way they walk up to me… are they ... Read More about “How was your day at school?” – Parenting through the good and bad days of growing up
“Movember-Snowvember” – Searching for Magic in the Mess of Holiday Expectations
Can you please just pretend it’s still November for me so this post makes sense? I wrote it in November but then December got all up in my face and I was like, "Whoa, December, chill! Not quite ready for you yet." It’s that time of year again. When the men grow out their facial hair in the name of ... Read More about “Movember-Snowvember” – Searching for Magic in the Mess of Holiday Expectations
Carry On Battle Weary Soldier (My Family’s War on Lyme)
A war is coming. I’ve agreed to fight it. But I don’t know if I’m ready. In fact, I know I’m not. I’ve fought one too many wars and found out I was fighting the wrong foe. So many medical rabbit trails. So many wrong diagnoses, treatments that did more damage than good, and doctors who were either ... Read More about Carry On Battle Weary Soldier (My Family’s War on Lyme)
Where have I been?! Here’s a snapshot of the last six months…
It’s been a long time since I’ve showed up here on Surrender the Day. I’ve been doing quite a bit of journaling but decided to give myself some grace in the Blogosphere. You see I carry around this guilt with me that I have a gift and a love for writing and I “should” be posting here at least once a ... Read More about Where have I been?! Here’s a snapshot of the last six months…
“Drama Mama?” – Learning to feel again
Recently at a Parent-Teacher conference, my youngest son’s Kindergarten teacher requested we help him realize that not everything that happens is a life or death situation. I laughed (and fought the urge to hide under the table) as he most definitely inherited this trait from his mama. Exhibit ... Read More about “Drama Mama?” – Learning to feel again