Where have I been?

Where in the world have I been?!!

The last post here was December.  D.E.C.E.M.B.E.R.  Yikes!

Half a year has gone by.  Not quite sure what to say about that. I’d apologize but I’m trying to give myself grace to struggle and be weak.  So, no, you get no apology.  I’d like to try to summarize the past six or seven months in some neat blog post but my life feels anything but neat.  Life is wonderful, hard, messy, full of blessings, weighed down by hardship, sprinkled with tears and echoes with giggles from my crazy sweet boys.

I have a journal full of prayers and random thoughts from this time period that never made it onto the screen.  Part of it was my leaky saggy brain making me want to barf every time I looked at a computer screen and part of it was just…life.  Pain and fatigue put me in survival mode and I’ve been treading water desperately trying not to go under.

I’ve come up to take a breath and am attempting to reconnect  So, I’ve decided to publish a series of blog posts that are excerpts from my journals over this past half-year.  Some of it leaves me feeling pretty vulnerable and wanting to hide under my bed, but I’ve learned it’s always worth the risk to be real.  These won’t necessarily be in any particular order but that’s okay.  I’m going for real not perfect, neat little posts.  We’ll see where this takes us.

Here we go…